A dove's cry on the gental moring breeze.
Sunlight peeking over the treetops shining down upon the dew covered grass.
Running barefoot through the feild children giggling with joy.
Hidden vipers within the tall grass waiting for something tender to bite.
Wolves hiding in the thicket hungry, drool dripping from there yellow fangs.
Sweet smelling purple flowers dancing in the breeze.
Cold bubbling water flowing through the rocky stream bed.
A small band of murderers and thieves encamped not far in the woods.
Beware of beauty, for it hides death behind it's peaceful facade.

by Jeremy

I am happy this week, mostly because it is my first pay this week. I should have it on Wednesday, which is also Halloween. I found out at work today that we need to clean even harder this week, because the higher ups that are in charge of the tire plants in Canada I think, will be touring there this week. So I should be a little more tired this week, but I don't mind it just means that I will be geting more exercise. One thing I do know is that I have been loosing weight since I have been there, when I started I could only fasten my belt to the first hole, but now with a little discomfort I can get to the third hole. I am hoping that I will be able to wear a large instead of an XX large. One of the problems with the stores around here is that all the clothes I want to wear are to small for me, they must think that overweight people like to wear plain looking clothes. An odd thing happened to me while I was at work today, there was this blond girl driving a forklift, and every time she saw me she game me this little smile. Now people usually give me smiles all the time at work, but this smile was different. It kinda reminded me of a small teasing smile, and each time she drove by me she gave me that smile. Oh well not much I can do about that, most likely she is just being friendly and that look was all in my head. On friday night I am planning to go out, I have a free movie ticket and if there is anything I want to see, I will go there. I am also planning on going to the Chinese buffet and then to the pub after that. I havn't done anything like that in a while, so that should be fun, should being the big word here.

Well it's time tfor me to go to bed.

Have a good night all
Jeremy

Trying to think of some thing to write, my mind has gone blank so I think I will just do some random ramblingfor a little while. Right now I am downloading the paltalk program, it's kinda like MSN or Yahoo messenger. It says I have about 20 minutes left to download it, it is taking so long because I am using dialup. It's alright I guess, it works for me but it is a pain in the ass to download stuff. However I don't download a whole lot so it's all good. I am glad that tomorrow is Monday, because it means the work week starts again, and I find myself excited to go to work, I think it may be because it gets me out of the house. It also gives me something to do with my time, I really hate not doing anything. The job really isn't all that difficult either, it is mostly sweeping with a little bit of mopping and emptying the garbage. The only thing I really don't like about the job is the heat from the machiens, but I can live with it. I can really see myself being there for quite a while. I am hoping that I can get my first pay soon, I think I am going to be getting it some time this week. I think that when I start getting paid I will start doing stuff on the weekends, like going to the movies or some thing like that. I really need to start getting out of the house, as it is I never go any place right now. I have a feeling that things will be changing for me soon, and I am hoping it will be for the better. I am thinking that I may also start to learn how to play a musical instruament, maybe the keyboard or something like that.

Well it's time for me to go now talk with you all later

Jeremy

With each day that passes I feel the darkness within my soul grow stronger. I isolate myself from others so I won't have to deal with there eventual betrayal. I'm not sure why I think people will do that to me, all I know is that it has happened before and it shall happen again. Trust is a very hard thing for me to have in people, and I can safely say there are very few who I do trust, and I trust them little. Perhaps I am just to negative and this is all in my head. Maybe I am not as sane as I think, and all I feel is just part of my malformed mind. Malformed being the proper word for my mind, because it is a cespool of grusome thoughts and disturbing imagry. But what can I say, it's all I have got and it's not going to change any time soon. Depression grips me many times, and it can be difficult at those times for me to see good in any thing. Talking to people when I am that way is no help either, because they either tell me to stop my whineing or that I depress them and they stop talking to me. To them I say, if you don't want to hear what I am feeling then don't ask me if I am alright in the first place. Yes I have thought of doing my self harm on many occasions, however when I am about to put those thoughts into action, some thing inside keeps me from doing it. However I feel that one day what ever it is inside that keeps me from harming my self will go away, and there will be nothing to protect me from my self. Now to those of you who are reading this, and think I may not be all there in the head. Think what you want to think, because it means little to me. I also want you also to remember that we are all dying, it's just a matter of time and circumstance that brings about our final day.

Ok I have one of those "free" trial disks for WoW, and when I went to register for it it said that I need a credit card just to register this trial account. Now I do not have a credit card, and if I did I would have no desire to use it for a "free trial" of a game that I was never really that interested in to begin with. The reasoning behind this they say is in case after the trial I could register for the full version. But to me the trial is just to see if I want to buy the game, not give them a credit card number for something I may not play that much to begin with. So if any one from Blizzard is reading this this is for you. A FREE TRIAL SHOULD BE A FREE TRIAL AND NOTHING MORE AND IT SHOULD NEVER NEED A CREDIT CARD TO USE IT.

Well that is my little rant for tonight, till next time keep it sleazy.

Jeremy

What exactly is normal? People like to say that is being like every one else. Personally I think that is messed up. First off let's say a native from the rain forrest comes to the city. Now in the native's home they are normal, yet in the city they would be concidered a freak. Normal is a subjective thing that changes from place to place, with no real set of rules. So I say we abandon the concept of normal and start being our selves.

Just remember any one can be like every one else, but it takes some one special to be different.

Jeremy

First thing this morning at work I find out I must scrape rubber off the floor. Kneeling down on the hard concreat floor I run the razor across the floor lifting the hard stuck on rubber off the floor. Sweat begins to roll down the back of my neck and my hair is soaked, a soreness begins to form in my knees. Light headed and hot I stand up and sweep the rubber away, then I move on to the next spot and start over again.

lol I did that for four hours today =P I swear if you could have seen my hair you would have thought I had just gotten out of the shower, and I also drank like four bottles of water while I did it.

Well I am tired and I better be getting to bed soon.

Talk to you all later
Jeremy

So today was my first day of work. I must say that I enjoyed it too. First off there was a little saftey thing we had to go through which was pretty boring. lol Most of the people were falling asleep by the end of it =P. After that I went to the area where the cleaners have there locker room, and looked over the paper work that we need to fill out. Then it was lunch time and after that I got to go down into the factory. I got to have a tour of it too =D. I really liked it because I got to see all the places where they make the tires. I never knew it took so much work to make them, there are a lot of different areas where they have to go through to go from chunks of rubber and wire to tires. After that I got to do some cleaning around the factory which I must admitt was pretty fun. At the end of the day I also found out what it is exatly what I will be doing there, and it is cleaning the bathrooms and break rooms all day. The reason being is that I have asthma and they thought it wouldn't be the best idea for me to work in the factory with all the dust, heat and smell. But I'm not worried I like cleaning bathrooms =P and I am pretty good at it too.

Well it's time for me to go now I may post something else before I go to bed.
So bye for now

Jeremy

So here I am on Sunday night sitting here. Tomorrow is thanksgiving here in Canada, however we had our big dinner today. The house was waaaay to crowded, maybe if we didn't live in a trailor it would have been a little more roomy. Let's see, my brother, sister, neices and both grand mothers were here. All in all it was ok, got to watch a couple of funny movies and I played some video games. But now I am tired, being around that many people in such close quarters drains my energy. I am looking forward to Tuesday, but I am nervous too. I'm sure I will do fine though.

I got the call about a half hour ago, I have the job!!!!!! I start on Tuesday and I work from 7 am to 3 pm. And I have to choose either the monday to friday shift or the tuesday to saturday one. I am thinking of the tuesday to saturday one, that way I can have monday off in case I need to go to the bank or something like that. This time I am also going to make an effort to save my money instead of just blowing it on junk that I really don't need, like I used to do.

Well I am going to go for now
Talk to you all soon

Jeremy

Hey there every one, first off I would like to say thank you to all of you for your positive coments =) it really makes me feel good to read them.

For the past few weeks I have been taking some pictures, nothing all that special just stuff around where I live. So I thought I would share a couple of them with you.

This one is of me, that I took about 20 minutes ago.

This is one of the squirrels that raid mom's bird feeder, I was about three feet away from it when I took the picture.

These are my skull and cross bones shoes, I LOVE THEM =D.

Some mushrooms growing on the side of the road.

And finally a sunset that I took when I was on one of my walks.

I hope you enjoyed the photos, when I take some more I will be sure to post them.

Have a good day all
Jeremy

I have been home from the airport for about a half an hour, lol and I am feeling a little tired too. I like going to the airport, it's fun to see all the people wondering where they are from and where they are going. I may also go on saturday when mom takes my aunt back there to go home. When I am there I just may sneak on a plane and go some place =P lol my luck I will get caught and thrown in jail. One little funny thing that happened when we were at the airport was that my mom saw someone she thought she knew, and when she talked to her we found out that mom didn't know her because the woman was from England =P. OMG I forgot to tell the really funny story that happened to my mom on friday. Well first off she went into town to get her hair done, and while she was there she went into the bank to get some money. Now she decided to use the ATM there, however she rarely ever uses it. So she puts her bank card in and nothing happens and her card won't come out. Now the funny thing is that she put her bank card in the slot where the bank receipt comes out. So she had to get the people in the bank to get her card out for her. lol They kept teasing her about it, but that's only because she knows them =P.

Since I had the interview the other day I have been having a good feeling, like something really good is about to happen. I know one thing, is that when I do start working there I am going to colour my hair, that is something I have been wanting to do for a long time. I was thinking of having it a darker colour, like dark purple, blood red, or dark green. And since the job is at a factory they will most likely not give a damn about the hair colour, it's not like I will dealing with the general public, and I also think I will be needing a hat while I work there too.

Well time for me to go now

Have fun people
Jeremy

My interview went well today, they told me that I should hear from them by Thursday afternoon if they want me. And I could start as soon as Monday =D
They told me of the tree areas that I could go into, and they are Cleaning bathrooms and break rooms, cleaning offices, or cleaning in the factory. They also tole me that there are two shifts, the first one is from 7 am to 3 pm and the other one is from 3 pm to 11 pm.
Heehee I am excited about it, this just may be the job I have been looking for.

Tomorrow I may be going to the Halifax airport, my aunt is comming to visit from British Colombia. lol She can be pretty funny some times.

Well I must be going now
Have a good night all

Jeremy

I saw these shoes the other day, and I want to get them. I think they look awesome

If you want to see the other shoes that they have you can go HERE I also like the knee high ones too.