Well today was my first day back to work from my long weekend (five days off) Now personally I really don't like having that many days off, mostly because I kinda find them boring and drag on to long. So I was happy to be back at work, to tell you the truth work is really the only place that I feel my happiest.

A strange thing has been happening lately, and that is that I have been feeling a little bit better about myself. It is getting to a point now where I will actually wear a t-shirt out in public without wearing any thing else over top of it, for example a long sleeved shirt or jacket. At this time last year I would most likely be wearing one of my hoodies or something like that. The main reason I did that is because I am not the smallest guy around and I guess I thought that if I wore a little to much clotheing that it would hide my big ass or something. But now I have more confidence and I feel a little bit better then I did last year.

Well it's bed time now so I am going to go.
Have a good night all

Jeremy

Ok well the past couple of days I haven't been home I have been going out and doing stuff (which is kinda a change of pace for me)
Now there is this girl that I dated once a couple of months back, but she decided that she only wanted to be friends, and she now had a boy friend too. Well a little while ago she was telling me that she wasn't going to be going online as much as she has before so we just sent emails back and forth. Now she seems to have a double standard when it comes to that, you see I will email her and she won't respond for up to five days, yet when I get her's I must respond to her as soon as I get her mail. Now since she decided that ew should just be friends, I have gone out with two girls. Now for some reason she knew both of them, and when I would mail her she would tell me that I have changed and that I hardly ever talk to her any more and she thought that we were friends. Well I am still the same guy, the only real thing that has changed is that I am actually starting to get a life and go out from time to time, and as far as me not talking to her. Well it is pretty hard to send an email when I don't have access to a computer.
Most recently (this weekend) I was on a date, and when I got home I emailed her letting her know that I went out. Well I got an email from her on monday, and I was going to email her back that night, but I was out till tuesday afternoon. Between those times she sent me a mail with the same crap in it, "you don't talk to me any more, you are changing, I thought we were friends"
To make a long and odd story short I mail her back telling her we were friends and that I haven't been on a comuter in a couple of days. Her reply was that she eas deleteing me off her stuff and that I have changed and a few other things.

Now I don't want to sound like an ass but my first thought at hearing that was good riddance, I have no deire for any more drama from any one, I just want to get along with my life and be happy for once. (which I am now starting to feel) My personal opinion is that it is all getting a little childish for me. And I apologise for the childness of this post but I really needed to rant about this.

It's time for me to get to bed now, Have a good night all

Jeremy

So I thought I would post something before I went to bed. I think I will talk about a couple of games I have. The other night I finally beat Metal Gear Solid 3: Snake Eater. It has been out for a while now but I have only had it since around Christmas or a little after that. I would have beaten it earlier but I had gotten to a spot in the game and it would freeze on me so I stopped playing it. So on saturday I decided to try it again and it worked perfectly it made me pretty happy too. I loved that game lol some of the things in it are kinda comical too. For example in the beginning of it your commander's code name is Major Tom. What made me laugh was when Snake (the guy you play as) calls in for the first time he says "Can you hear me major tom?" Now for those of you who don't know that is a line from a David Bowie song. Lol I am such a nerd for that kind of stuff. Now the other song I want to talk about is Resident Evil 4. I think I am one of the few people who really doesn't like this game. The main reason I don't like it is because of how far Capcom has strayed from the other Resident Evil games. They took it from a survival horror game and turned it into a wanna-be shooter. I truly believe that if they would have kept it to the original format of the series then it would have been a whole lot better.

Now for something different

Ok so now I am going to do some random writing just to see what comes out.

Cold bitter winter wind biting the flesh of the lone traveller, trudging through the drift covered highway. His parka pulled tight around him offered no relief from the storm raging around him. Some would call him a fool to be out on a night like this, others would call him a hero. He came five miles down the road, from a small town that now lies in ruin. The things that went on there are to horribal to describe, yet that man was able to escape. Even more increadable, he escaped with his sanity mostly intact. Even now was he walks he can hear whispers over the blowing wind, and he keeps seeing shadowy forms out the corners of his eyes. He knows deep down they are following him, and that they won't let him live there can be no survivors...........

I am to tired to continue with this.
Comments on it would be wonderful

Till next time

Jeremy

I'm back again and in kinda of a good mood this morning. Not to much of any thing new has happened to me in the time that I have been gone. A few odd things have happened though. Well one odd thing that happend was that about four months ago this girl that I had feelings for kinds disapeared off the face of the earth. Well a couple of weeks ago she sends me an email and we have started talking again. It is kinda odd to me because she just vanishes for like four months and just all of a sudden poofs back into existance. Oh well what ya gunna do hmmm?
Now here is the odd and creepy thing that happened last friday. Now about two years ago I bought myself a copy of the Necronomicon, for those who don't know what that is I suggest you research about it, and it's different aspects. Well I kinda misplaced it and have been looking for it for quite some time. Well as you know last Friday was Friday the 13th, and I decided that evening I would go out to the pub after work. But when I got home around 11PM I decided to go to bed (mostly because of the room spinning) and just as I was getting to bed, there it was right out in the open on one of my shelves. It was in a place I have looked 100 times before for it and never found it. I thought to my self Holy shit it's my copy of the Necronomicon where the hell did that come from? I personally think it was a little odd and creepy that I have been looking through my entire room for my copy of the Necronomicon for like a year now and it just magically appears in plain view on Friday the 13th of all days.
Now enough of that, here is the last odd thing that has happened to me recently. Like two weeks ago they hired a new girl at work. She is pretty nice and friendy, kinda cute and insainly chatty. Lol the girl won't shut up lol it's all good though. Well the odd thing about her is that she likes touching me for some reason. Now I don't mean like in a perverted way, I mean like putting her finger in my ear and grabbing ahold of my hand so she can compair my finger nails to her's. (she said her's looked weird and she needed to compair them) Now this wouldn't be so odd if she didn't have a feancie and was getting married next year.

Well it's time for me to go now
Smell ya later

Jeremy

Hello all, how are all of you?
I am feeling kinda messed up today, I had another one of my dizzy spells today at work too. Not really sure what is going on, I did have a CT scan last week but so far I have not heard any thing from it. I am a little worried about it lol mostly because I have been listening to other people telling me what it may be. So I guess I better put it to the back of my mond till I hear from the doctor about my scan.

Arrrg I hate trying to think of things to write about, lol when ever I do my mind goes blank. So I guess I will just write randomly till I get bored and go to bed.

I saw on the news this morning, that there was a hockey fight some place in Quebec. Not sure the name of the team but it was the one that Patrick Roy is the couch of. Well any way his son plays goal for them and he goes over to the other goalie and starts punching him repeatedly in the face and head. Now I understand that that this is hockey and they fight in it. But pounding some guy in the face, when is this right??? I mean why is it more acceptable for a guy to pound another guy's head when it is on the ice, yet I can't just go up to some random guy on the street and do it. Is it that the laws of society just vanish once they enter the arena, or is it that deep down in side that we all secretly get our jollies from a couple of thugs beat each other senceless. Oh well blood soprts have been around for thousands of years, and no matter how much of a pretty package you put it in it is still the same. Be it gladiators in ancient Rome, or a bunch of heavy fisted goons on the ice.

Well I guess I am going to go for now, hope to her from you all.

Jeremy

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Hello again every one how are all of you? I had my brain scan yesterday, lol it was for 9:30 am but I was done before 8:30. I really didn't find to much out though, because when it was done they went into another room and then after like 5 minutes they came out and said it was alright for me to go I guess they should have sdaid that after the scan was done. I also got a hair cut and coloured my hair yesterday too. Here I am if you want to see.

Do tell me what you think of how I look, I don't know if you can really see the colout that well, but it is a purpleish tint.
Lol One thing I can say is that the women at work must like it, because they were all smiling at me today for some reason.

Ugg I don't feel to well tonight, I really havn't been feeling the best this week either, so I think I am going to go now.

Talk to you all later

Jeremy

:P I am also looking forward to hearing your comments on my picture.

YAY so I am back and I am here to bother you all once again with my idiocy. Not a lot has happened since I have been last here, well nothing all that interesting. I have been on a couple of dates. And they ended up pretty much the same way, them pretty much not talking to me after them. Oh well I guess I am not all that hot as I think I am. I did get a new piercing though I may post a pic of it some time too. I think one of the reasons that the girls I have been dating don't really talk to me after we go out is that I am probably going out with the wrong ones. Not a one of them have piercings or tattoos, lol and natural hair colour. If you kinda want to know what kind of women I like they should personality wise be similar to me. As far as physical appearence, well I think the lead singer of the Horrorpops is pretty damn sexy

lol There I go rambeling again, I usually do that sort of thing. Oh I went to the movies last night, I saw 10,000 B.C. I thought it was alright. lol I liked the saber toothed tiger the most. It's a shame that it wasn't in the movie all that long.

I guess it's time for me to go for now, but I will be back tomorrow.
Till then have fun

Jeremy

It was a rusting hulk of an iron bridge, the kind they used to use for trains. Nothing has gone across it for at least ten years now, and leafy vines have begun to twist and choke the dark brown struts. That is where he was laying, in the middle of the old bridge on his back looking up at the sky. He was all dressed in black, like he was going to a funeral and he had his arms behind his head pillowing it. Slowly I walk up to him and look down to his face, if he saw me he never let on. So I decided to speak to him "ummmm why are you laying there? You know that rust and tar from the rail ties are going to ruin your suit." Still looking up at the sky he says "It's old"
"what's old?" I ask him.
"The suit" he says "it's old, I got it from a thrift store for about six bucks, quite a deal if I do say so myself"
"That's nice, but you still didn't tell me why you are just laying there" I say to him.
"Didn't I? Well if you must know I am waiting" he replies.
Still looking up he yawns a little, staring at nothing. Looking up myself I ask him "well what are you waiting for?"
"The opening" he says "just waiting for the opening."
"Man you are strange" I say to him.
"No stranger then you" he says "talking to a complete stranger on a rusty old bridge in the middle of nowhere."
He did have a point there, and to tell you the truth I have no idea why I am even here. It's like some force drew me here, normally I don't like to even go any place close to vegatation, to many bugs in it for my taste. Yet still here I am in the middle of a bridge talking to a loon.

Blah I can't think of anything else to put here. So I better quit while I am ahead.

As for my song of the day it is Mother by Danzig
Have a good night all

Jeremy

Hey there people I wanted to show you all my new friend Willis. So here he is.

Another odd thing that happened, the girl I mentioned earlier that I have been dating told me the other day that she only wants to be friends :S Now I know what you are probably saying right now, "what's wrong with being friends?" Well there really isn't all that much wrong with it, except for when what you want is to be loved by some one. In a way I am happy she told me early instead of waiting till I totally fell for her, but I would have liked it even more if she told me before we kissed. Oh well I guess it's alright I guess, the only problem is that women usually say that to me all the time. lol Actually it's what they always say to me, and it is kinda starting to piss me off a little, not to mention the blow to the self esteem that it makes. It starts to make me wonder what exactly it is about me that repulses women so they only want to be frieds. Ugg now I am starting to feel sorry for my self, so I will stop talking about it. So I will start talking about some thing else. My PS2 for example, I got it in the summer time from my friend for free, well not exactly free, I gave him $50 and he gave me the PS2 and a bunch of games. Now the only problem is that the PS2 is a piece of crap, mostly because it can't play DVDs any more and a couple of ganes don't work in it. One game that won't work in it is God Of War, which pisses me off because I just traded one of my old games for it this weekend, and I really want to play it.

Oh well that is my rant for now
And now for my music pick for the night and the song is Magic Moment now this is the remake of the song not the original. Now the remake is done by the Misfits and it is on there Project 1950 album.

Well I gotta go now but I will be talking to you later

Jeremy